Block 3

拜一考试啊~~!!!
Going to end my block 3 soon
4 more months to go until I am back HOME!!!!
I hope time flies but in the other hand this indicate my UNI exam is coming too
矛盾呀矛盾  D:
btw I still got tonnes to study but I'm still hanging on net
gonna sleep soon, good night world

                                                                                                                  为梦想而飞，加油

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加油

Seriously I have no idea when is the last time I log in to my blog's account
As expected, life as a medic student  -.-
Finally I start to get use to the life and people around here
Sometimes, when I skype with my mum I will complain to her that my studies is very hard, a lot to study which will never end and so on but she will always say, "Who ask you to choose this course? This is the path that you chose yourself. "
Well, I know that's true but you know sometimes I just need to spill out my problems, stress and tiredness to someone. My complains are just a way to express my feelings.
Don't think that I am very free today. In fact I have tonnes of topics to study and my block exam is coming soon D:
This is why I'm always homesick. I'm not that kind studying person, I don't like to study at all but what to do, my course needed it. So I feel very respect to those JPA scholar, how can they keep study and study?
There is time when I felt very tired, I feel like giving up. Although I'm less motivated sometimes but I will not give up!!! I WONT GIVE UP!!! I want go become a good doctor!!! I need to find  a way to keep myself motivated and passionate all the time. 加油，曾祖恩!!! 朋友们，你们也加油!!!

My mum and aunts flying to Europe today for 3 weeks. "阿花出城" she said...LOL
She is going to visit her friend staying in Holland and of course to tour around Europe. So envy right!!! But then she has been working so hard for so long and never have chance to get a good rest. She always tell me that she is tired of working already as she started working since the age of 16 until now and she still have to keep continue to work to pay my big amount of studies fees. Thank you so much mum!! It's time to have a good rest and enjoy, have a safe trip!!

Felt so much better after blogging and will try to blog as frequent as possible
I still have a lot of stories to share but I have to go so hope that next time I can share them out and hope the "next time" will not be after a very long time
And I miss all my buddies and friends!!! I miss Kuantan!!!
God bless you all and me!!
Ciao~



                                                                                               别人笑我疯颠，我笑他人看不穿

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Recent me

Currently I'm in Manipal, India pursuing my degree course in medicine

the air is so dusty here and the traffics were very bad 

you can just keep hearing the honing sound non stop on the road 

crossing the road has becoming a deep knowledge here

because vehicles were the priority, they will just pass by without caring the people walking-.-

We have classes from 8am to 5pm in the evening 

schedule is kinda pack as well, 

2 hours of anatomy dissection class we had 4 days per week were so tiring

even on Saturday we will have class : (

lecturers also expect us after class will go back and study  

but the brain already keep functioning since morning

go back study somemore...really no need to rest meh?? -.-

everyday I feel so tiring and about 10pm I will go to bed
but the problem is the next morning I still feel tired!!pathetic!!!!!

sighhhhh~~ maybe I had too much holiday and my engine already cold down

you can see me still online-ing everyday while other people were busy studying T.T

keep study and studying is just not my cup of tea but the bad news is the courses I took needed that

what to do??I've chosen this path 

I always stick with 4 of my course mate here and all were chinese

but I am still not that close with them yet...not really can click and no much topic

maybe I'm just too shy lol xD

my desk mate beside me both were chinese guy and we were like hi during class starts and bye after that 

I cannot express myself here T.T

Hope everything will goes well here and will try to update my blog more often!
Cheers everyone!!


xOxO

My 20th Birthday

Wow...it has been quite a long time I deserted my blog because of laziness 
will update something that happened recently in this post


I went to KL last 2 weeks with my friends during the Raya holiday.
Yes, finally I get chance to try in Jogoya, a Japanese style buffet restaurant on the first day.
omg I ate a lot, no kidding!!please call me the Queen of Jogoya~~ *waving* lol

The next day, we went for laser tag game (something similar to paintball but replacing with laser)
in Midvalley and we actually had so much fun!

At night, I went for clubbing with my secondary school friends to countdown for my 20 th birthday
at first I was alright but in the end I cannot even get myself to the toilet and I think you can guess what happened next...I vomited INSIDE of the club! so much embarrassing......
My friends immediately get me out of there but Oh No!! I puke again! OUTSIDE of the club! embarrass x2
the most unforgettable birthday ever >.<

Last day, I met and fare-welled with another few of secondary friends before went back to Kuantan.
My dad picked me up at the bus station but the weird thing is he did not fetching me home...
he brought me to the beach, bank and even to eat lok lok..we almost rounded the whole Kuantan!-.-
finally, when I reached home, my friends were in my house with song and cakes! *touched*

I really felt so glad to have my friends in my life!!Love them so much!!!
but these 2 days, most of them left for uni to further studies :(
I miss all of you so much!! all the best in everything and may our friendship last
Feel free to give me a call when you all have free time



xOxO

Let by gone be by gone

一切的都将成为过去

再大的风雨过后

总会是晴天

Soon

Kia Ora everyone!!:D

My work in the pack house finally ended on Tuesday!!

facing apples everyday for about 3 months...so sick of apples already -.-

I will be traveling around the south island for about 20 days 

Now I'm in my first stop, Wellington, the capital of New Zealand for 3 days

this is the second big city after Auckland if I'm not mistaken   

love to see so many people walking on the street, the traffics, 

night view of the building's light......so enjoyed being in the city!!

there are much more people and taller buildings here compare to Napier

somehow I still miss Aqua Lodge, the backpacker's house where I live in Napier :(

Aqua Lodge is more like a home, living with the people you use to be, much warmer

I went to the Te Pa Pa museum today...it was kinda interesting actually!

this visit makes me change my perception towards a museum, 

they have 3D short clips, videos, action earthquake house, 

the real giant squid specimen which is bigger than my size......totally different from M'sia!!

tomorrow we will be going to the parliament tour and ride the hundred years cable car..:D

anyway, I will be back to Malaysia in early June which is just a few weeks time

so wait for me guys...I'm coming back SOON~!!

xOxO

Sick

Yes, I've fall sick...because it hurts this time...so badly
lies among truth, truth among lies
I cannot differentiate which is which anymore

maybe it was a mistake since the very beginning
there is none to blame nor scold
just simply an ownself stupidity

anyhow, time will cure
time will fades everything
and soon I will recover
but just time is the matter now

                                                                                                                               
                                                                                                                                                                                     I need someone to talk... 
                                                                                                                                                                                     I need someone to hear...
                                                                                                                                                                                                   I need a hug......                                                                                                                                      
xOxO

I'm Broke

About 2 months I've been in NZ already...time flies!



What I've broke here?

I broke my leg...
fell down few days ago in the pack house and twisted my leg!!:(
so damn pain!!I couldn't stand up and can only sit there yelling for pain
I was so afraid that the same case like last time where I injured my left leg happen again
after awhile I was able to stand up and it was just a little pain
so I continue to work, but the pain gets stronger and stronger
I force myself to stand it until I finished my work
when i got back to house, I felt so pain that I could barely walk
I cannot find any spray or medicine but just some ice to put on
the next day my leg gets better so I decided to go to work though the pain was still there
after all my leg is recovered now, I think

I broke my laptop...
my lappie!!gone!!!yes..this is so wtf!!
I don't know what's wrong with in
when I turn on only black screen came out and was stated there is no bootable device
what does it mean?!!someone who is expert in pc please save my lappie!!
 I need it so much here T.T

I broke my glasses...
I broke my specs during work
it is so expensive for me to fix them here
but luckily I still have my contact lens with me

I broke a relationship...
perhaps, sometimes there are things that is not need to be said or told
somewhere, somehow, words are still words
but then after all, memories will be the most killing ones 


Anyway...Easter day is coming next week!
and finally I'm having 4 days of break!!holidays~~
plus, I have to go to the Malaysia Embassy in Wellington to sit for my USM MUnSyI test
besides, I'm also planning to go to Australia for 1 week
looking forward to my travel in NZ and Australia...can't wait to see the world!
will upload some photos soon so stay tune everyone!
ciao~


xOxO

5th Week in NZ

This is my 5th week in New Zealand
almost everything got settled down and going stable

Somehow, I have to work EVERYDAY without off until the end of April!!:(
the work is so tiring...I got blue-back on both of my arms for carrying those heavy boxes of apples
but the worst thing is I need to wake up 4.30 am in the morning as my work starts at 6 am!!!T.T
it was freezing cold here in the morning, can't stop shivering while brushing teeth -.-
everyday I prayed that the working time could past asap
after finishing work, we went back to cook for our dinner and the next days's breakfast
these were the daily routine I repeated everyday

I got scolded by my supervisor last week
he screamed at me so loud almost the whole pack house's workers heard
and the point is I don't think I did anything wrong
his scream frightened me actually and I feel like crying
I forced myself not to, but once I get back to my position I couldn't stand it anymore
my tears start to flow and flow......I feel so 委屈 at that moment
but after that I was alright

My results coming out in 3 days time
I got no expectation because I think the more you expect, the higher your disappointment will be
people said, what you sow and what you will reap
if you sow abundantly, you will reap abundantly
but I had sow sparingly, so I know what I will reap
I just hope I can go through these
because if you cannot accept the failure now, how are you going to face more the challenges in your life?
no matter what, all is well~~
I just hand in all to God


All the best everyone!!

xOxO

Reached

After about 12 hrs of flight...oh yeah I'm in Napier, New Zealand now!
so cold~~here though it's still summer here -.-
5 hrs of difference from Malaysia...jet lag
it is so hard to get free wi-fi here!!!we need to pay for it most of the time :(((
4 nz dolar = rm 10 per hour of internet!!!!!!!!!!sigh~
mcd free wi-fi but can't video call also and is kinda far

I stayed in a backpackers house
with lots of "guai lou" and almost all "gou dai wai mang"~~xD
they're very friendly but dirty at the same time
I don't know how many days they had left their dishes there already


Went for work briefing in the morning today
will be start working on thursday as a fruit packer
and now is the apple season here


McD is closing already, I have to go...so stay tune!



xOxO
 

Bye

Currently at McD LCCT
waiting for my flight to New Zealand at tomorrow 8.40am

Yang Ning and Shu Min came to send me in bus station
can't control myself and my tears fall
my friends and their family were there too...so embarassing man -.-

I still can't believe that I'm going to NZ this soon
actually now I feel kinda scare, not secure
3 months le in a foreign country
I will be missing everything in Malaysia : (

Anyway, this will sure be an unforgettable experience somehow
hoping a better change in myself
wish to become more mature and understanding
wish me luck everyone!!don't miss me ya xD

Take care and good luck!
Bye bye~~



xOxO

Happy Chinese New Year

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012

Happy Dragon Year everyone!!

best wishes and good luck 

this year will be a better year isn't it? : )

xOxO

Time Bomb

How?!! am so worry now...my heart is beating fast!
it might be the 4th world war
I got no gut to face these


yes, it's all my fault
mean to hurt no one
don't want to see them get hurt or upset anymore
but what can I do??
somebody please teach me
time BOMB is going to EXPLODE...very soon




God, please be with me no matter what happen...I pray, Amen!

天灰

我的天空今天有点灰

我的心是个落叶的季节

我不知道如何度过今夜

所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

累

有时候真的很想摆脱
所有的人情世故
所有的重担
所有的烦恼
所有的一切


可以不再去顾及别人的感受
不需在乎别人的看法
不用理会别人的眼光


因为担心别人会不高兴
害怕弄到别人难受
更不想因为自己而伤害到任何人


但为什么这么累？

不是要把自己变成什么大好人

                                 只是简单的希望大家都快乐

                                                                                                               
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闭关

各位乡亲父老，
暂时挥别了。。。
为了迎接一场即将“杀到迈来”的战争 T.T
本人必须闭关数个星期

士可杀，不可辱
无论如何，宁可让自己失败也可以放弃
船到桥头自然直，所以尽力就好
一切的就交给上帝安排吧 : )


同志们。。。
奋斗，加油！！


                                                                                                           
                                                                                                                                                                                                  不要怕，只要信

xOxO

Dream

Nice to see
nice to hear
but once you wake up
you'll realize......
words are still words
promise are meant to be broken
after all everything was only just a Dream


                                                                                                                                                                                   对不起，谢谢
xOxO

TUTD

Saddest night...


you don't know how much this hurts
what have I done?
did I do anything wrong??

perhaps, you're one of them
perhaps, our friendship is just that shallow
perhaps, I'm really that annoying

somehow... I hope....I wish......
you're not one of them  


I hate Form 6!


                                                                                              哭过i就好了

Mayfly

That day during biology class, there is one question asked about mayfly
never read of it in my biology book before
so I asked my classmate on the same table about this
we discussed and Aw told us mayfly is 五月的苍蝇(may season housefly)

such a coincidence that today when I attend my youth in church,
an advertisement video that mentioned about mayfly is shared
actually mayfly is a kind of dragonfly
it is also called one-day fly because of its short lifespan, that is only 24 hours
similarly, we have to live our life with no regrets,
live each day to the fullest just like the mayfly
what do you expect people to remember one thing about you after you die?

Know what? I think all these isn't a coincidence... :)


xOxO

Leo

I don't believe in horoscope thingy
because I know my God has planned everything for me :)
randomly read dao a post about personality of Leo today
feel that quite zhun yi xia de le for me


狮子座...
 喜欢热闹、享受孤独 ,, 脾气很大 ;
沉默 , 是一只狮子最大的哭声 ,, 从不做作 ! ♥
 宁愿忍受痛苦、也不愿意向别人提起 ;
现实、敏感、很正义 ,, 最爱面子 , 很温柔的星座 ;
性格冲动 , 爱恨分明 ; 喜欢口是心非 .

要命的自尊 , 简简单单就好 !

 天性好玩、好奇心重 , 最怕失败 ;
狮子是星座里最专一的星座 ,, 不会原谅别人 ;
让人觉得很难接近 , 冷傲的感觉 !

one of my friend told me before that I'm a typical Leo
what do you think?xD


xOxO