累

有时候真的很想摆脱
所有的人情世故
所有的重担
所有的烦恼
所有的一切


可以不再去顾及别人的感受
不需在乎别人的看法
不用理会别人的眼光


因为担心别人会不高兴
害怕弄到别人难受
更不想因为自己而伤害到任何人


但为什么这么累？

不是要把自己变成什么大好人

                                 只是简单的希望大家都快乐

                                                                                                               
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闭关

各位乡亲父老，
暂时挥别了。。。
为了迎接一场即将“杀到迈来”的战争 T.T
本人必须闭关数个星期

士可杀，不可辱
无论如何，宁可让自己失败也可以放弃
船到桥头自然直，所以尽力就好
一切的就交给上帝安排吧 : )


同志们。。。
奋斗，加油！！


                                                                                                           
                                                                                                                                                                                                  不要怕，只要信

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Dream

Nice to see
nice to hear
but once you wake up
you'll realize......
words are still words
promise are meant to be broken
after all everything was only just a Dream


                                                                                                                                                                                   对不起，谢谢
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TUTD

Saddest night...


you don't know how much this hurts
what have I done?
did I do anything wrong??

perhaps, you're one of them
perhaps, our friendship is just that shallow
perhaps, I'm really that annoying

somehow... I hope....I wish......
you're not one of them  


I hate Form 6!


                                                                                              哭过i就好了

Mayfly

That day during biology class, there is one question asked about mayfly
never read of it in my biology book before
so I asked my classmate on the same table about this
we discussed and Aw told us mayfly is 五月的苍蝇(may season housefly)

such a coincidence that today when I attend my youth in church,
an advertisement video that mentioned about mayfly is shared
actually mayfly is a kind of dragonfly
it is also called one-day fly because of its short lifespan, that is only 24 hours
similarly, we have to live our life with no regrets,
live each day to the fullest just like the mayfly
what do you expect people to remember one thing about you after you die?

Know what? I think all these isn't a coincidence... :)


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Leo

I don't believe in horoscope thingy
because I know my God has planned everything for me :)
randomly read dao a post about personality of Leo today
feel that quite zhun yi xia de le for me


狮子座...
 喜欢热闹、享受孤独 ,, 脾气很大 ;
沉默 , 是一只狮子最大的哭声 ,, 从不做作 ! ♥
 宁愿忍受痛苦、也不愿意向别人提起 ;
现实、敏感、很正义 ,, 最爱面子 , 很温柔的星座 ;
性格冲动 , 爱恨分明 ; 喜欢口是心非 .

要命的自尊 , 简简单单就好 !

 天性好玩、好奇心重 , 最怕失败 ;
狮子是星座里最专一的星座 ,, 不会原谅别人 ;
让人觉得很难接近 , 冷傲的感觉 !

one of my friend told me before that I'm a typical Leo
what do you think?xD


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Apologize

I'm a bad tempered person

sorry for always saying words that hurt you badly again and again

just can't control myself especially when bad mood strikes :(

maybe coz I care what you did to me?

sorry for sometimes being such ridiculous person and rude to you

actually I'm kinda curious how can you stand it? :p

hope you know that I don't mean to hurt you so much

do really appreciate what you've done for me ^^

owe you lots

I'm sorry I can't be perfect~

dui bu qi LanLan...wo bu shi gu yi de aa

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Fml

Exams over, screwed my trial
at this time, normally people will think this way:
" aiya, don't jia jia la, you will still pass" or "if u screwed then what am I? like that also not satisfied? "
don't know why I just don't have the right to say I don't know how to do in my exams
every time when I say like this I will get shoot =.=
okay, I would like to take this chance to shout out loud that
hello...we're also normal human le, also can don't know how to do de okay?!
sigh :(

Something that make me feels very heng and bu shuang happened today
I'm not a kid anymore, I am already 19
actually it's not a big deal though
I know how to think already, I have my rights to choose what I wanna do
stop over react and please RESPECT me
I don't really understand why you need to do until such step to me
am I really that wrong??
anyway don't force me to dead end

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唸你

我的字典里没有放弃
因为已锁定你
我从不写空白的日记
日记里全是你~~


Like this song...lol xD

Empty

Suddenly feels so empty
=(

有一天

有一天 你若覺得失去勇氣
有一天 你若真的想放棄
有一天 你若感覺沒人愛你
有一天 好像走到谷底

那一天 你要振作你的心情
那一天 你要珍惜你自己
那一天 不要忘記有人愛你
那一天 不要輕易說放棄

這個世界真有一位上帝
祂愛你 祂願意幫助你
茫茫人海 雖然寂寞
祂愛能溫暖一切冷漠
這個世界真有一位上帝
祂的雙手 渴望緊緊擁抱你
漫漫長夜 陪你走過
祂愛你 伴你一生之久

Words louder than Action...

考试越来越近了
曾祖恩。。。你这还在干什么？！！
-.-



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For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.
For as the heavens are higher than the earth,so are my ways higher than your ways 

and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9

Dilemma...=(

a mess!me sucksss! >.<
don't mean to hurt anyone
the feeling I'm having now is really bad

I need you Lord. Please lead me and guide me to go through this...

teach me what to do for You know what is the best for me! 
144000




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小小鸟

我是一只小小小小鸟
想要飞呀飞却飞也飞不高 =(

我都有今日了。。。
神啊。。救救我吧

哭过就好了

哭过就好了
伤都会好的

哭过就好了
痛都会走的......

坏人

我是

坏人...




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Update

Really hate this kind of feeling I'm having now
what should I do?
what can I do?
it's like having a time bomb
and wondering when it will explode
not anyone's fault
just that need to worry a lot and i dislike it

mid year exam is over
not satisfy with my results
I can do better if i study harder =(
don't want to eat sand..so I have to work harder in my studies!!
STPM is near...
gogo Chang Jo Ann!!!

anyway...holidays is coming =)
and I'm going to Redang!!Yay!!haha
looking forward =D
Holsss~~~~

I need you Lord...


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不管发生什么事,
如果这么容易就被打倒的话
那个就不是曾祖恩了!!!

加油吧，
你行的!!

Sun Burnt Skin

One day...

I will be like sun burnt skin

just peel it off when I couldn't bear

enjoy chatting with u

你不知道我知道你以为我不知道的事

xD

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Random

One day, my mom randomly told me this...

"Next time when u grow older, don't get marry la
all guys in this world are actually the same,
cannot be rely on
so better you don't get marry
accompany and take care of me until I die
then only you go find a partner enough, no need marry..."
Lol xD


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Irreversible

Went for appointment to checkup my leg
I was still a bit limping while walking
the doctor said this will slowly improve
but I will not be able to walk 100% as normal as I use to be last time
and the possibility for me to get athritis in future is very high due to my leg fracture
should I be sad?
but then...what can I do??
this is already Irreversible

don't worry, I'm strong enough to accept the fact and walk through it
as I know God, you will give me strength and be with me!

Next, one of my eye became swollen
shui wang wang eyes gone...T.T
by the way, here comes holidays
so what??I'm in Form 6
as usual, holidays = no hols
sigh...=.=

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Long way to go...

Such a long time didn't blog
Again..I repeat Form 6 life suckss!!>.<
loads of homework...stressed
I really wish that I could go back to the past
Feels helpless
Feels like crying
Feels like giving up...
but then NO!!I know I have to fight til the end
so Stop this thought Chang Jo Ann!!
you don't even have time to have this kind of thought
you've got long long way to go!!
Fighting!!!
I need you Lord~

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Thoughts

Argghh~!!
what am I thinking?!!!><

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Depressed

It is not pms...
but i kept having bipolar mood ><
Stress up recently
total depressed
loads of homework
trying hard not to online so frequent

Mood swing
unable to control my feelings T.T
This is so not me
never have had this happen before in the past
is it form 6 fault?


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